Ever had some crazy dramatic thing happen in your life that you’d just like to erase from your memory because it’s too stressful to think about? I don’t believe I’m a horrible person, but I’m not proud of the fact that I have contributed to something that has come back to bite me in the ass. Idle talk and meddling and the proverbial grapevine will get you every time. I think my new mantra needs to be ‘shutup shutup shutup’ or something along those lines. It starts out with little things and gets blown up into big nasty things when you can’t let the little things go and keep your big mouthed opinions to yourself. I am so done with it all. Not with being sympathetic and empathetic (or just plain pathetic) but no more fanning the flames. And that’s all I’m going to say about that.
Last night I came home from work and poured myself a glass of red wine to lighten the mood. Several hours and an empty bottle later my mood was quite improved. The bottle had already been opened – I’m not a total lush. Just a partial one. I watched a Jennifer Aniston movie (Picture Perfect) because she’s a much better actress than she gets credit for, and because everyone needs a feel-good, happy ending chick flick every once in awhile to stay sane. Then, because there was still a bit of wine left to finish off I watched “Fierce Creatures” starring the cast from “A Fish Called Wanda”. Much weaker plot but still had it’s own laugh out loud moments. Perhaps by that point a serious documentary might have made me laugh, who knows.
Today I’m making Pulled Pork in my crock pot with my recently acquired Epicure spices. I really think that should have a different name. Sounds like something from a Monty Python skit.
I am continuing to read strange things on my kindle, and seriously need to cool it on the 99 cent specials. Although there’s always the possibility that eventually something will be SO strange that it will warrant commenting upon in a positive fashion, rather than just thinking to myself “omg that was a complete waste of time and brain cells”.
Speaking of brains, I’m keeping mine from going completely numb by playing “Words With Friends” (a much nicer past-time than the real life gossipy version of words with friends) and a couple of other scrabble-like games on Facebook, plus a game in which I have to locate random objects in different pictures. I’m trying to improve my powers of observation, being the kind of person who can stare right at something for five minutes without really seeing it. Or with a brain that doesn’t compute to me what I’m actually looking at. You might think I’m having deep thoughts and that’s perhaps true part of the time. The other part there’s just nothing going on at all.
Empty head and a closed mouth. Lofty aspirations. Wish me luck. I think I can do it where it matters.