Maybe I’m reading too many books, watching too many movies, sleeping too fitfully, reading too many blogs…(no, never that….) but for whatever reason I’ve been dreaming completely bizarre things lately and waking up with most of the details still in my head for longer than can possibly be healthy. I should be writing them down I suppose and analyzing them to death but then I might have to conclude that I’m insane, and who needs that? Best to leave it as merely a possibility than to prove it outright.
I wrote something a long time ago about lucid dreaming, but I can’t find it so I don’t know if I’m repeating myself or not. Lucid dreams are pretty normal for me. I know I’m dreaming and I can either just watch what’s happening or I can influence and even control what happens next. This is why I rarely have nightmares – if things start going wrong I take them in a different direction, or I wake myself up. Then sometimes I go back to sleep and start the dream over to make it better. Mostly I just let dreams happen to see where they want to go. But I almost always know it’s only a dream.
The good new is, I don’t have hallucinations when I’m awake, and I’ve never had an out-of-body experience involving astral projection. Although if I wanted to I could probably make myself dream such a thing. I’m too scared to attempt it.
Instead I have vivid dreams about people who have split up getting happily back together. People who have serious problems suddenly just not having them anymore. People who have had strokes and are in wheelchairs getting up and walking away simply to take a break from all that sitting down. People who have died deciding they’d like to come back to chat with me for awhile, so they do.
And it’s not really wishful thinking, because even in the dream I know it’s simply a what if scenario and will all revert back to the way it was or really is, sometimes even before I wake up. So why bother?
Well I think it’s some kind of test. Somebody out there is trying to tell me that life could be a dream sweetheart, sh-boom sh-boom. Or something to that effect. We all have the power within us to change what happens next. So why are we all just sitting around waiting to see what happens? And getting all anal about it when we don’t like it? Like it and accept it, or make it better. Those are your choices. If you really are certifiably insane, embrace your inner crazy. Life goes on. Make it whatever you want.
Have a lucidly awesome Saturday everybody.