My November Day Twenty Nine
In your native language which letter or character describes you best? Why?
I closed my eyes and mentally recited the alphabet, calling on my spirit guides and muses for divine inspiration. Or, you know, some such similar nonsense, because really, how else do you come up with an answer to this one? My brain stopped on the letter “O”. Some days my brain is very helpful, up to a point.
Just look at how versatile this letter is – it can be paired with any number of other words and things to convey the following:
- Dismay (with crap, damn and hell, accompanied by mournful sighs or deep groans)
- Surprise (with my gawd, really, and some high-pitched squealing)
- Confusion or disbelief (said with a question mark implied)
- Joy (with YES! ALRIGHT! HALLELUJAH! etc.)
- Understanding (as in O yeah, I get it! even when you don’t.)
Why does this describe me? O….I don’t know. Oh oh. Oh phooey. I am skipping that part.
What is your greatest extravagance?
Well it sure isn’t clothes. Since I stopped working I have been wearing mostly yoga pants and flip flops and comfy tops with holes in them. And everything has paint or glue or ink on it somewhere.
So my answer is art supplies, which will not be surprising to anyone who sees what I’m wearing.
Do you prefer exercising your mind or your body? How frequently do you do either?
My mind wants to do mental gymnastics at night when my body would prefer to sleep, so I have learned lots of ways to discourage it from thinking so much. It is certainly good at dreaming up excuses during the day for my body to relax. I like to think there is a good balance of both kinds of exercise in my life. Liking to think such a thing does not, however, make it true.
List at least 5 things that make you laugh.
- Savage Chickens
- Little kids saying random swear words with no clue what they mean.
- John Cleese
- Baby goats
- Bridesmaids (the movie)
Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?
I am grateful for our amazing weather this sunny warm November. It’s almost unheard of to shovel snow here only once in this usually godforsaken winter month. Our son bought a new snowblower this year, so that’s probably why.
This week coming up I should be hearing from medical offices wanting to set up appointments for me. What a dumb thing to look forward to. But I certainly am grateful for our incredible health care coverage, without which I would probably be sick and penniless and maybe even dead.
And on that pleasant note, Happy Grey Cup Sunday! Go Eskimos! Oh no, I won’t be watching the game, just enjoying the peace and quiet while W is downstairs glued to the big screen. Oh yeah.
Jazzy Does 100 Days of Happiness 62
Last night I slept for eleven hours. It’s amazing what a good long sleep does for your outlook on life in general.
It’s been a while since I’ve felt like myself. For one thing, I don’t want to write every day, even on days when there’s nothing of any consequence to write about. Oh, hell, who am I kidding, that’s always been the norm here. Now that I have something mildly interesting to talk about, I don’t feel like talking about it at all. Apparently these days I prefer to sit down and stare off in to space with an empty head. I suspect W is completely exasperated with me, because no matter how hard he tries I can always find a reason to be negative and bitchy. I’m not so fond of this different me. No doubt he isn’t either.
When I’m at work and some annoying person starts complaining about a random inconsequential minor stupid bit of nonsense (they’re all like that lately) I really would like to tell them to just please shut the F up. I don’t care. I’m sick.
My CT scan was done on the seventh of July, and now I have an appointment booked for August 11th at the University Hospital with an excellent doctor.
Professor of Surgery
Divisional Director and Zone Section Head
Otolaryngology – Head and Neck Surgery
Does that not all sound excellent? I’m sure I’m in excellent hands. I should be feeling totally excellent. Except that the ‘oncology’ word scares the living shit out of me. He is also a plastic surgeon, so if half of my head has to be removed I’m sure he can build me something interesting to take its place.
The holiday that we’ve booked for two weeks with family in Ontario can go ahead as planned, leaving on the 26th of July and flying back on August 9th. I have hours in the day when I completely forget about all of this. What’s the point in worrying and imagining and dwelling on it, really. I thought when I got to Day 16 of Jazzy and her happiness project and my life took this funny turn that I would have to put a hold on all her blather about happiness. At least this different me realizes what a huge mistake that would have been. I’ve had a couple of dark days but look, here I am. I survived them. I think life likes to hand you bad things you think you won’t be able to handle just to show you how strong you can be and that you can.
So until the middle of August, life is good. We’ll have a fun holiday, a time to remember. And perhaps after the middle of August life will still be good. Maybe it will just keep on getting better and better. One way or another, life does go on.
See how weird this different me insists on being? Seriously, stop it. Okay. I’m done. Me too.
There’s not much more I can say on this topic anyway, since I didn’t ask any questions in the interests of ignorance being bliss.
Okay! Has this bloggers block been broken? Different me hopes it has.
Jazzy Does 100 Days of Happiness 18
Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep.
Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry.
Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.
After 41 years of being married to W (42 in November if we both live that long) I totally understand how you might think of me as a relationship guru with all the answers when it comes to making commitments that last. I often think of myself that way. And then I give myself a good smack on the forehead and come back to earth for a while. Because really, who knows why some relationships last a lifetime and others are just practice runs for something better? We’re all different, and we all relate to each other in different ways.
This is an excellent challenge for all the Bloggers for Peace, and for anyone who is now or has ever been in any kind of relationship, wants to end an old or start a new relationship, or wonders if relationships are all they’re cracked up to be or worth the effort it takes to maintain them. So that covers pretty much every human being on earth.
Every one of us has our own individual recipe for a peaceful home with a list of ingredients that makes relationships with others work for us. It should never be carved in stone. We grow, we change, we evolve. My personal formula for happiness is in constant revision. At this particular moment in time, these are some of the things that work for me. If I come back and read this post in five years time and wonder how I could have been such an idiot, that’s probably a good thing. It means I’ve learned something new and changed, hopefully for the better.
Okay! Here we go. Grandmalin’s Relationship Advice Column. What makes a peaceful relationship and what you can do to become a better partner. Because there is nothing else in life I enjoy more than telling people what to do.
1. Make peace with yourself first. You have to create your own happiness first before you can share it with someone else. There is no one out there who can make you happy. That’s your job. Another person can help bring out the best in you, but the best has to be there in the first place. There are also no positive relationships with emotionally unavailable people. If the people you’re currently hanging around with are not happy, IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT. If you and your significant other have grown in different directions and can no longer connect or appreciate each other, by all means consider that it may be the right time for both of you to move on.
This is number one on my list because it cannot be stressed enough. When you love yourself and are at peace with who you are, that love will spill over into all your relationships with your family and your friends and with every one you meet. And it will open your heart to receive the peace and the love that comes back to you.
2. Don’t try to change each other. Go bang your head against a brick wall instead. It will get the same results. Accept, adapt, acknowledge. Change and growth cannot be forced. Overlook the little things that bug you, because they really don’t matter all that much in the grand scheme of things, and work on your own reactions to them instead. Don’t nag, don’t harass. You could maybe try crying and pleading, and see if that works. But don’t get your hopes up. Sometimes you just have to readjust your expectations and carry on.
3. Speak up/Communicate. Unless you are both mind readers, you will have to talk to each other. Express your own feelings instead of trying to make the other person feel something. Saying “I care deeply about what is happening” means “I care deeply about you.”
4. Shut up/Listen. Unless you are both mind readers, you will have to really hear what is being said to you. Don’t blame, don’t judge until you’ve truly listened with empathy and compassion. Everyone wants and deserves to be heard.
5. Admit that you don’t know everything. Because, hey – you don’t know everything. Confess when you mess up. Step back when you are angry. One person should not get to be the boss all the time. Not even you. Apologize when you need to and don’t stay mad.
6. Slow down. Life is short and should be savoured at a leisurely pace. What’s your hurry, anyway? You’ll get to the end of it soon enough. Be patient with each other. Enjoy the learning process together. Shoot for less drama and more calm. Work through the issues. Be strong enough as a team to weather every storm.
7. Be kind. Keep your promises. Each of you deserves to be seen and heard, loved and appreciated. Be grateful for the time and energy and tolerance it takes to support a loving relationship. Be supportive and helpful and happy for each other’s successes. When you fall flat on your face it’s nice to have someone around to help you pick yourself up. Be that someone for the people you love.
8. Give each other lots of space. Respect the other persons right to do things on their own, to make their own decisions and their own mistakes. You may be a couple, but you are still both individuals working hard on whatever it takes for you to be the best you can be, investing time and energy in your own personal growth. Sometimes we simply need someone to be there, not to fix anything or even to do anything in particular, but just to stand beside us so that we know we are cared for and loved.
9. Play. Have fun. Laugh. Be silly. Life does not have to be so serious. Spend part of every day being a bit wild and crazy. See how that feels. Pretty good, hey? Do it again tomorrow.
10. Never forget why you fell in love in the first place. The older you get, the harder it may be for you to recall what the hell you were thinking. Just remember, your relationship does not define you and it does not own you. You are now, and forever will be, yourself, living your own life. But since you’ve decided for now that you’re in this together, don’t stop working on your relationship and everything that makes it sweet.
Love yourself, give love, receive love, be in love. Practice, practice, practice. That’s how peace happens.
Trying to mould someone to suit your own intentions will eventually wear you right out.
Positive thoughts make positive outcomes.
(And there’s always, always, ALWAYS something funny going on.)