Sharing My World 43

First month of my “World According to Curly Girl” calendar.

This is the last world sharing prompt from 2015, number 52.  Answering it now feels late, but isn’t really because the next one is due out Monday, and today is Saturday, right?  Even though the first of January felt like a Sunday all day to me.  Two days in to the new year and already I don’t know what day of the week it is for sure.  It’s going to be a great year.

Tell how you are feeling today in the form of a weather report. (For example, partly cloudy, sunny with a chance of showers, etc.)

Mostly sunny with a few foggy patches.  Much like yesterday, also predicted for tomorrow.  If there are clouds they will quickly disperse revealing silver linings.  Long range forecast…. rain will fall and then it will stop.  The snow will eventually melt.  The sun will rise and set and rise again.  This is the most boring weather forecast I have ever heard, but sometimes boring is the best thing you could wish for.

What is most memorable about your high school years?

Five years of my life, (this is way back when there was still a grade thirteen) and the first thing that pops in to my head is the hours and hours and hours spent riding in a school bus, to and from, day after day.  Sometimes running late and missing it, sometimes the weather and the road conditions making the bus late.  My brother missing the bus on purpose so he could take the car.  He had to space those out so it wasn’t so obvious.

I was a shy and introverted loner who got crazy high marks in everything.  My classmates were nice to me and most of my teachers liked me.  I had a few good friends.  Not really a recipe for popularity in there anywhere, and yet in my final year I was voted prom queen.  That was pretty memorable.  My sisters friends all voted for me, the rest of the votes were split amongst the popular girls and my favourite teacher counted the ballots.  This is how elections are won.

My first year of high school I had secret crushes on boys who would have been very surprised to learn about it,  since I so studiously ignored them, in case they might notice I existed and try to talk to me or something.  There was a chance they would say something stupid instead of a great line from a romance novel and I didn’t want any illusions shattered.  Gawd, high school.  Weirdest time of your life.

Have you ever owned a rock, pet rock, or gem that is not jewelry?

No ordinary rocks, definitely no pet rocks, and hardly any jewelry at all except for watches and earrings and a wedding band.  I have never owned a diamond, but that’s another story.

When I was having the mysterious lymphatic lumps on my neck investigated a couple of years ago and saw Yulanda, my favourite psychic, she gave me nothing but reassuring news (which turned out to be bang on, thus the reason she is my favourite).  She also gave me a flat smooth dark yellow stone, almost an amber brown, and for the life of me I can’t remember what it was called except that maybe it started with an A.  It wasn’t just a healing stone, but had balancing properties and other calming helpful things.  It’s the kind of thing I think is a little silly, because, come on, it’s just a rock, but I kept it close to me anyway until things felt resolved.  It was a little worry stone that soaked up my worries.  You do strange things to soothe your soul.  I still have it.  Even put it on a chain so I wouldn’t lose it.  Maybe I won’t need it again, but you never know.

Complete this sentence: I like watching…

Netflix.  Because I want to get every penny’s worth out of my eight dollars a month.  Occasionally I watch movies, but mostly it’s some tv series that goes on for many seasons so I can binge watch until I’m sick of it. There is no end in sight for the mystery shows;  lawyers, police, forensics,  investigators, detectives, criminals, victims, supernatural phenomena – I watch it all.  The latest thing I’m into is Midsommer Murders, but I have to say I’m getting a little tired of women screaming every time they stumble upon a murder victim. Really, there’s a dead body and somebody screams.  Several bodies, lots and lots of screaming.  Other than that, it’s a good show.

Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

I am grateful for a lazy laid back Christmas and New Years.  I was in bed well before the fireworks on New Years Eve.  The Christmas stuff is packed and put away and W is back to driving and doing the grocery shopping.   The furniture is all back to where it’s supposed to be because we no longer need a wide path for the walker.  I am brimming over with gratefulness for that alone.  There was a much welcomed and appreciated phone call from the latest clinic I visited telling me my fibroid test results were normal.  Normal is such a beautiful word, we really should appreciate it more.

In the week coming up I would like to go through my many unfinished drafts and either finish them or delete them.  I expect most of them will end up in the trash because I won’t remember what I was talking about.  And I am looking forward to the increase in daylight motivating me to make use of it in my little art studio, where the artistic “drafts” are piling up much like the written ones.

There are only twenty-nine days left in January!  Yay!  Let’s all be grateful for that one!

Just Jazzy 273

Jazzy Does 100 Days of Happiness 60

Happiness is seeing a psychic who tells you nothing but good things, and then throws in some weird healing magic at the end for good measure.

Not Broken, Just Cracked

 

Or a little bent, perhaps..  Maybe a LOT bent and cracked and scrambled and ready to shatter with one more shove.

So get out the glue.

A good life isn’t necessarily a big life, or a long life or even an “important” life.  Whatever it throws at me, I’m happy to be living mine.

Well, what a lot of blather that was.  I’m sure I could go on and on avoiding the point for much longer than this,  but here’s the reason I’m currently allowing myself to wallow a bit.

About six weeks ago I noticed some swelling just below my jaw on the left side of my face.  I thought it was a swollen gland.  I went on holidays and more or less ignored it.  Even convinced myself that it was going away.  Then I got more swelling up closer to my ear, and on the 12th of June went to see my doctor.  She suspected a blocked salivary gland, maybe even a stone, and told me to go home and suck lemons.  Really.  I love her.  She also gave me a lab requisition to book an ultrasound, but the lab told me this type of ultrasound is more specialized and has to be booked at a hospital.  I was eventually scheduled at a new clinic across from the University Hospital for June 24th.

I had the ultrasound done around one o’clock and then drove straight to work from there.  At four thirty my doctor’s office called to say they had the results back and my doctor would like to see me as soon as possible, could I come in tomorrow morning?  Yes I could.  And could I bring someone with  me?  What? Why?  Well, for support.  Dead silence while I tried to digest this.  Really?  Is it that bad?  I felt sorry for the person who had to make this phone call because they’re not supposed to tell you anything.  But sometimes by not telling you anything they tell you a lot more than you want to know.

I’ve already been through a very similar experience with my thyroid investigation, when I was called in to the doctor’s office very quickly to discuss the results.  That was over ten years ago.  I had to go for a needle biopsy after that.  Those results were fine, but because of some pre-cancerous growths I was given the option of having surgery to remove the unhealthy looking bits and ended up with practically all of my thyroid removed.

After this phone call I spent a restless evening (with the help of the internet) imagining every worst case scenario there is, and a few more after that.  I wore myself out.  So when I went in to talk to my doctor the next morning (on my own) and she told me the radiologist thinks this looks like it could be a cancerous lump, I was kind of numb to it all.  Yes, okay.  So what’s next?  Blood work and urinalysis, which I had done in the same building right away, and arranging for a CT scan to be scheduled.  There are two specialists she can refer me to when we have the results, depending on which one is able to see me first.

Then I went home.  And now we wait.

I phoned W and he says he will come home.  I know I must talk to my kids and my sisters, although I would prefer that they be oblivious to it all for as long as possible.  Worry is such a piece of crap thing, ruining your day with no good result because it doesn’t change a thing.

And it might be nothing.  IT MIGHT BE NOTHING.  I have no other symptoms.  I feel perfectly fine.  I admit I’m feeling rather sorry for myself and it feels therapeutic just to put it all into words for now.

But here’s some things that boost me up.  Maybe this is the glue I was talking about.  The morning of the 25th, (which was the day after what would have been my dads 100th birthday) when I got up to make coffee, there were three magnificent magpies strutting about in the backyard.  I have always considered magpies to be a very good omen.  They remind me of my mom and my family.  I haven’t seen any of these birds around here for weeks.  Just as I was leaving for the doctor’s office there were FIVE of them out there, on the lawn, on the garage, on the new fence.  Flapping and squawking and not flying away. They haven’t been back since, but they were there when I needed to see them.

I pulled out my type-written notes and re-read some of the things the psychic told me last July.  Things that didn’t really register at the time, but now seem to make perfect sense.  New female GP,  some problem with my neck,  June 2014, two specialists,  some sort of procedure, not life threatening, trust that you will be in very good hands, everything is going to go much better than anticipated.

Am I a superstitious fool to take great comfort in the appearance of some magpies and in these words?  I don’t care.  I do.

CT scan is now scheduled for the 7th of July.  That’s fast.  That’s good.  There are happy days to be grateful for in the meantime.

Yulanda

Sometimes it’s nice to listen to an intuitive messenger and healer giving you guidance and advice and telling you stuff about your life.  The reason I know this is because I’ve just experienced it.  A wonderful little lady who calls herself Yulanda talked to me for over an hour, non stop.  I was one of seven people having a same day “reading” done last week before I flew home.  I don’t know how she does it – it must be physically and emotionally (and maybe even spiritually) exhausting for her.

It was a little exhausting for me too, since there are days when I have the attention span of a gnat and my mind wanders and I can’t immediately make sense of things. The entire session was taped so I’ve listened to it all again and, in a burst of ambitious insanity,  typed up a fourteen page copy of all the things she said.

Whew.  I know you will forgive me if I don’t relate it all to you word for word.  The thing I love about psychics (I’ve now been to three) is that you can do away with all the preliminary bother of greetings and introductions and just get right down to the serious business of revelations and mind-boggling insights.  I’m probably the perfect subject for this kind of thing, since I get all emotional and weepy hearing what I already know deep down, but have difficulty admitting to myself.

This is a very much condensed and abbreviated version of all the things she said to me.

1.  You are cognizant, perceptive and intuitive and thus know things that other people don’t.  There are those who find you conceited and arrogant, although you are (of course) neither of those things.  You nail it, every single time, even for little things.  You just know things.  Trust that, trust the things you know.

2.  Your spiritual recognition comes from being a very old soul with experiences from many, many lifetimes.

3.  Your spiritual professionalism makes you a nurturer.  Your world can be chaotic, upside down, and it has been, but no one will know it, you tell them you are fine.  You give and give and are always there for everybody, and lots of times people are not there for you.  You have surrounded yourself with people who take, and this can cause you to become depleted.  You have a huge heart.

4.  You don’t recognize these wonderful qualities about yourself, the amazing energy and the bright light around you, how you are twenty steps beyond compassionate and  have such wonderful empathy, actually deeply feeling people’s pain and joy.

5.  You have a kind of perpetual loneliness about you, being often physically alone, and must be always reminded that you are not alone.  You are never alone.

6.  You have genuine kindness and incredible integrity.  You don’t get angry often, you are like a willow that bends, but you should never apologize for your anger.  Get it out, and then let it go.  You keep too much inside and you need to release that, get mad, have a good cry.  Breathe.

7.  You are a good judge of character and on this you are never wrong. You have premonitions and feelings about people.  Trust those feelings, even when there is no proof because you are always right.  You can also see the good in everybody and you are very forgiving.

8.  You are a really good and wonderful mom with unconditional love for your children.   You are a mom to everybody and very approachable.  Strangers will open up to you because you have a magnetic presence, a charisma, and they feel very comfortable with you.

9.  All this love you have for everybody – give some of that back to you.  You have a heart of gold and are very open with broad spiritual shoulders and take on the weight of everyone’s issues and problems.  If you do what’s right for you and you’re okay, everyone else will benefit.  Never berate yourself or hold yourself accountable or think you should have tried harder when you are not able to help someone as much as you’d like to.

10.  You never ask for help yourself.  Not ever.  You have had a difficult life, you’ve really had your ups and downs but you are a very strong soul and you just keep going.  You carry on.  Embrace that about yourself.  Nothing gives your guiding spirits greater joy than to help another soul.  You don’t need to be broken or alone, learn to ask for help.

11.   Emotional support, finances, physical abundance, good health – all these things are going to be there for you.  This is a really good year for you now, it feels like the beginning of something new.

12.  There is a non life threatening imbalance in your system, a sensitivity to something and a lot of symptoms but all for different things although  it’s just one core thing with branching symptoms.  You will need some sort of procedure and a specialist or two and a change in meds.  Everything will go very well, much better than anticipated.   You will be in good hands.  You have a very high pain threshold and need to watch your comfort level and not ignore what your body is telling you.  .

13.  Your son has just gone through a rather difficult period but it was something that had to take place.  He was not able to be who he is supposed to be and now he is turning into really being himself and that is a very good thing.  He is a very trustworthy and loyal person.  He is meeting new people and he is not doubting himself as much anymore.  Now he can express himself and not hold back.  He is a really good dad and has a truly remarkable connection with his kids.  He is their lifeline.  Please know that he is fine. He is going to be okay.

14.  Your daughter is very, very independent.  She needs to have that person in her life who is really very strong but will allow her to be independent and still care for her.  The relationship she’s just come out of was suffocating her.  It is important for her to stand her ground and set her boundaries.  There were things that she was holding back on, things she didn’t do to move forward, things that got put on hold.  She is a great person, she is more free, she is breathing better now.  She is finding her own path.

15.  Yes, you should absolutely go to Greece.  I don’t see you travelling alone, but with a lot of people.  You are going to be looked after, you have worked hard, this is your time.  There are new beginnings for you.  I also see you going back and forth to the same place over and over again.  It’s really good for you and you embrace that.

16.  There is a gentleman spirit here with whom you connected very strongly in this life, he loved the water and the outdoors, and we would say he crossed over before his time.  He had a comfortable chair that he sat in, he has a military connection to someone in a world war.  This person has a deep affection for you, a lot of love, admiration, pride, and a deep, deep respect for you and your accomplishments.  He wants you to know he is fine, and at peace, with a wonderful sense of clarity now which he did not have on this earth.

17.  Your writing – YES.  Keep writing, absolutely.  You have an ability to write the things that are channelled to you, even though you are not aware of it.  You sit down, take a deep breath, and then boom.  You write.  It just comes.

18.  Somewhere around the four-year mark you are going to consider a move.  Everything will just fall into place, it will be perfect timing and very good for you.  You will come out ahead.

So, there you have it, in a (gigantic over flowing) nutshell.  Do you think I got my moneys worth?  When you think about it with an open mind, this is pretty astounding stuff.

And I think Yulanda is a pretty amazing and beautiful soul.  I feel blessed to have met her.

Guardian Angels

My astrological forecast for Friday the 13th:

Here you are, patting yourself on the back because you thought you were a contender, and instead it turns out you’ve got exactly what it takes to deliver the knockout blow. Don’t hesitate. Deliver the goods.    

I don’t understand that!  So it seemed fitting to add it here along with all the other things I was told today by a psychic medium.  She said that what I didn’t understand today would eventually all come clear to me, so I’m writing this down for the future much smarter me.

–  I have several guardian angels looking out for me – on further investigation the main ones appear to be my dad, my mom, my grandma, and my Uncle George.  I would have thought Uncle George had better things to do.

– There have been a lot of very indecisive people in my life over the past couple of years, but things are starting to clear up for everyone. Things are falling into place.  Money is not an issue.  A GOOD move could be in my future but it’s not a MUST move.  Things are settling around me,  My family members are getting their act together.  There are not a lot of problems, so I should just keep going.  (I got from all this that I was probably one of the most boring people she’d seen all day.)

– I am surrounded by positive energy and ready to make positive changes in my life.  Things will be smooth, there will be no real issures.  I will have room to breathe.  (I am falling asleep here. Your dead relatives are more interesting than you are.)

– The names she mentioned that do mean something to me – Harry or Harold, Margaret, Mary, George, Ken-something (-zie?) several Williams (possibly second or last names), Kris (although she wrote Chris, but that could be my neice’s boyfriend too), John and Julie.  (I just saw my cousin John in London and his wife’s name is Julie.)  She also mentioned Shawn, Michael, David, Doug, Jean and Cathy.  Who the hell are those people?

– It’s time to sort out my priorities and do what makes me happy.  I have been sitting on a shelf.  It’s time to get on with things.  (I protested that I kind of like sitting on the shelf, and she said I KNOW you do.  Get off it.  Get out of that box and out of your comfort zone.  There is a passion within you.  Find out what it is.)

– Magpies are very spiritual birds.  (Yeah, that surprised me too.)  When I see them they remind me of my mother.  But Cardinals also have special meaning for me. (I hope this is referring to two of my granddaughters and their beautiful names, and not something stupid like the two fake birds I have on my welcome sign at the front door.)

– She was surprised that I had no awareness of my dad’s presence in my life because it is incredibly strong.  He is always with me.  He is also looking out for my daughter who is strong and determined and getting it together.

– It is safe for me to travel by air.  (If she’d said it wasn’t safe, I wonder if I’d be looking at a bus schedule right now.)  I will be taking a getaway trip to the U.S. with two other women and will have a great time.  Money will allow it – no worries.  (Vegas, here I come?)

– My thyroid problems are under control.

– My brother is doing well.  He is very strong.

– There is an ending of a marriage coming up, likely a divorce, excessive drinking is involved.  I will be giving very good advice to the couple involved.  (No doubt without being asked for any.) (I think the end of a relationship is a very sad thing.  Drinking could actually help the process.  But perhaps this is not the good advice she had in mind.)

– The ‘animal’ card I picked was a beaver.  She turned it over and laughed and told me it was perfect and meant I must get busy.  I think a beaver is about the last thing on earth I want to identify with right now.  Or maybe ever.

Finally she asked me if I had six months to live, (don’t worry, you have much longer than that) what would I do?  I said I thought I might just keep on doing what I’m doing.  I like to write.  I like to read.  I sometimes paint.  ( I bore the pants right off psychics with my problem free existence….) She threw up her arms and shouted “THAT’S IT!  You must paint!  You are filled with a creative passion!  Get out of your comfort zone and do what you love to do!  (And please, get out of my cottage now and send in somebody whose aura won’t put me into a coma.) (Or something like that – it’s my own psychic interpretation of how her day was going.)

I suppose over all I really can’t complain about our little chat.  I just think a psychic should be able to freak me out a little better than that.  But it appears my guardian angels have been vigilant and are doing a bang up job.

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What the Psychic Told Me

I’ve just spent an incredibly fun week with my sister – Ron and Jo arrived yesterday afternoon from Calgary to pick her up,  and they’ve headed back towards home this morning, via the states.  Shopping, eating out, going to movies, messing around with our PHONES.  Someone will no doubt invent something soon which will keep ones phone permanently attached to ones left hand!  Bridesmaids is one of the funniest movies I’ve seen in a very long time.  We liked it so much the first time, we took Jo with us last night and watched it again!    And of course we talked and talked and talked.

Yesterday we visited the Russian Tea Room on Jasper Avenue where readings are done – definitely a first for me, and I think it might be fun to go back again, being a little better prepared.  At the end she said she would answer ten questions for me, and after wracking my poor little brain I think I may have been able to come up with five.  I really wonder if my life is so incredibly boring that she couldn’t get into too much about me personally, but there was certainly lots and lots of stuff to do with family.  She did point out right away that I’m a very strong person, an earth sign surrounded by Alphas, but the one who keeps everything together – the rock of the family.  And apparently to me, home and family is everything.

I picked the Tarot cards and a full life reading – might as well go for the full meal deal.  Right away she started talking about my “son”, but it turned out to be my grandson once we established his age at 9 or 10.  He is bright and creative and destined to do something very brilliantly different with his life.  At some point he’ll have a falling out with either his father or his father-in-law.  I hope it’s not his dad – can’t even imagine that.  My ‘around the same age’ granddaughter also has a hidden passion yet to be discovered.  It will take her a very long time to figure out what it is and may involve books or writing, but it’s something she has to discover on her own.  If she marries, it will be later in life.    There is a pregnancy in the family that I’m very excited about, but it’s not my immediate family.  That would have to be my brother’s first grandchild, unless I’m missing something here.  There will also be a conception in October.  Which would mean another baby next July.  I suppose there’s many possibilities for that one.

She told me I’m separated from my husband.  That was a little disconcerting, even if she simply meant by distance.  But then I guess there’s all kinds of distances.  She said he has health problems but is in denial about them.  (Name me a guy to which that doesn’t apply).  I will outlive him.  It is highly unlikely that I will marry again.  Instead I will become the Ice Queen.  And my granddaughter is already the Ice Princess.  My son and his wife ‘take in strays’ and would like to save the world.  My daughter is the most spirited person in my life, and we have drifted apart and come back together many times.  She is a person who always gets what she wants, but mostly what she ‘wants’ is all wrong for her.   I have never much liked any of the men she’s been with,  although I don’t say so, and am just relieved when they’re gone, although also sad because I wish her happiness.

She told me my side of the family is all good, no big issues going on, but a lot of stuff going on with my husband’s side.  His father is not in good health and kind of done with living.  His mother will live to be 100.  (huge huge sigh from me…lol).  I did ask about W’s brother but she definitely skirted around that one, which makes me think the prognosis is probably not good.  For me, my blood pressure and circulation are possible areas of concern, and maybe some arthritis.  She told me I will have a stroke when I’m 93.  I made her repeat that number – how amazing if I live that long!  And she thinks the stroke might be fatal.  Gawd, at that age I don’t think I’d want any other outcome really.  She said I will never be rich, but will always be comfortably well off.  There is more money coming in the not too distant future.

She told me that I’m fed up and bored with my work and have lost all enthusiasm for it.  There is a move coming in the next 2 to 5 years, could even be sooner.  My husband does want to move and it’s possible that something will happen soon which will set the process in motion.  This next part of my life will see me being the happiest I’ve ever been, as long as I start preparing now deciding what I’m going to do with my time.  Otherwise I’ll sit around twiddling my thumbs going stir crazy.  She suggested that I like boats and fishing.  That got an eye roll.  I’m sure they’re in my future, but liking them is a stretch.  She also told me I think I don’t like to travel, but that it’s really something I secretly enjoy doing and I should do more of it.  There will be two trips this year, one inland and one having to do with an ocean, although not necessarily crossing it.  And this Christmas may be a good time to break with tradition and take a trip.  (Later Dana told me she and Jen have been thinking about a Mexican Christmas!  I’m sure they were wondering how they’d ever convince me to join them!!)  I’m so obviously a stick in the mud about so many things.

I have also come to a point in my life where I’m completely done with solving other people’s problems.  I just don’t want to do it anymore.  I want them to ‘get out of my head’.  She said that my sister and I are very different.  (Since other psychics have consistently told Ann she is a born healer, I will have to assume that a healer is something I definitely am not.)

Anyway, what can I say?  The whole process was just great fun.  Next time I’ll feed whoever it is a lot more information, and I’m sure that will give me a lot more interesting stuff in return.  And I’ll definitely dream up a few more questions!  Man, what a completely uncurious person I am.  Dana had her reading done right after mine, and I think the psychic quite enjoyed doing the mother/daughter thing.  There is a soul mate in Dana’s future!  I’m more excited about it than she is I think!!  Too funny.  We must just sit back and let the universe unfold as it should.  Or something like that.  And when you think about it, seriously, what else can you do?