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It’s In The Cards

Every day I get a tarot card reading in my e-mail.  Most days they’re funny.  And then there are the days when they acutally make sense and sound down right prophetic.  Like this one for instance:

You are about to enter a new phase in life.  You may find that you attract a lot of unusual friends.  Some kind of shared experience or interest could bring you together with people who are strongly interested in making changes in the world.

I’m all for new life phases and improving the world. And now on the lookout for weird people to share all that with.  Of course I didn’t meet enough of them on day one, so I started to rethink the whole thing.  And the cards sent me this:

You have mixed feelings today.  On the outside you are projecting warmth, compassion, empathy and confidence, but inside you have some strong doubts, particulary where it comes to your path right now.  Don’t let momentary challenges get to you, they will pass.

I mean seriously, are they tuned in to me or WHAT??  So I thought it would be a good plan to just keep on projecting all those positive emotions and feelings until I actually started to believe in them myself. And also maybe keep it up until I have that epiphany about changes to the earth.  Or whatever I was going on about the other day.  Finding my path.  OMG, how am I supposed to find my path?

If you slow down and let yourself think about things calmly you may find that you come up with a strong and positive way to make a solid improvement in your ambitions today. You have a lot of creative ideas today, but may not believe in them. Trust yourself. It always seems impossible until it is done.

An improvement in my ambitions?  I don’t really have any ambitions – except perhaps the ambition to be ambitious about something.  As for creative ideas, I finally finished a project that I’ve had on the go for about a year.  It’s never a good idea to rush things in my world where self doubt reigns supreme.  There isn’t a really good “before” picture because I forgot to take one until somewhere in the middle.  This little chef with a shelf from the island cottage is probably 50 plus years old.  He was painted red white and blue and covered in greasy grime.  The wood stove got too hot one day and his yellow plastic salt and pepper shakers melted.  I took pity on him and brought him home to give him and his tray a makeover.  I’m always doing things like this, completely negating any antique value things might have in the interests of making them look less like pieces of crap.

He’s sideways because the pieces aren’t put together yet.  I was afraid that because I had to sand them so much they wouldn’t fit snuggly enough in the end. 

But he turned out okay I suppose, just like the cards predicted.  (That’s how I interpreted their message sometime after the fact.)  You know, where they said it seems impossible until it’s done.  Done or not, I’m certainly done with it.  A year is a bit long to have something on the go.  W leaves tomorrow and he’ll be taking this little gem with him.  I sure as hell don’t want to look at it anymore.

I went back to work today, after a month away from it. The cards made these suggestions:

You can learn a lot from your friends and companions today. They will be excited, full of strange and interesting ideas. You may find that people have very unusual ideas, particularly the older males. Be careful when dealing with older men today.

HAHA!  That certainly put me in a good (less serious)  mood!  And made me eye every old man who came in with apprehensive suspicion.  I was very careful.  I did not sell anything to any one of them, just in case.

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